"Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, because without sadness, there is no happiness; you would never learn to smile."

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sgtking: jerlisa, you've been acting weird today.
Dickson: ... Because she got laid. that's why she even took leave yesterday, because she was getting laid!
me: ahahaha, f#ck you dicks!
Dickson: I'm just saying... that's what makes me happy too!
me: ... Oh gahd, i need new coworkers!
Jena: why do you always go for the wrong guys? Why don't you find someone in the military like you?
Me: no, because people always leave. and I don't think I can handle that again! 😭

Today, my best friend and I talked. She brought up you again, and my heart sunk. I don’t know how it happened, but it did. She always brings up how she thought we were gonna last, trust… I thought that too at one point. Seems like forever ago already. I had a dream about you the other night. I was just walking along the beach and a ship came up from nowhere, and you ran out of it and ran right behind me, covered my eyes and hugged me from behind. Whispering that we were gonna be fine, and that it was never supposed to end the way it did. I woke up from that dream, I didn’t even know what to say. I wish it wasn’t a dream, I wish I would’ve woken up and we would’ve left off where we did. As much as I hate to admit it, I miss you. more than anything, i want you back in my life. ahhh, I’ve never been soo disappointed in myself for letting us go soo easily. all these other guys, and No one comes close to you. that funny, silly, serious at times, always teasing, sweet, caring, open, honest handsome man. How did I manage to ever let you get away? 😔😔

"I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things."

That’s life. You’ll face some obstacles and you’ll have choices. Will you stand in the rain waiting for things to happen or will you move forward and make it happen? it’s your life, you decide.

I’m done trying, you made it pretty clear. I know what I need to do and I can honestly say I’ve been happy these days. I finally know where I stand, and I’ll let it be. A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I’ll continue to move forward.