That’s life. You’ll face some obstacles and you’ll have choices. Will you stand in the rain waiting for things to happen or will you move forward and make it happen? it’s your life, you decide.
you say that I have nothing to worry about. But when it comes down to it, I feel like you and her will ALWAYS be unfinished business and that’s something I can never compete with, so what’s the point. I’m done trying to even be in your life, I give up cause no matter how hard I try, it’ll never be enough and I can’t forever be standing in the rain. I just want to be happy for once, but I guess that’s too much to ask for. It is what it is!
Honestly, I don’t even know anymore. No matter how hard I try and care way too much, it will never be enough. As much as you say it matters, the more I feel as if it really doesn’t. There is only soo much I can do and for so long I can try before I give up, and I just feel like i need to let this go because I’m in a circle. This whole thing is never-ending, but I need it to be. I can’t tell you what to do, I can’t force you what to feel, I can’t read your mind, I can’t keep hurting myself trying to figure you out. I’m just tired. I’m stuck. physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. A complete wreck.
im sorry it’s taking me forever to let you in. just know that, im a bit scared. im scared that i might fall in love with you with every strength i have, knowing that i could possibly lose you. im scared that our friendship could be lost if anything was to happen, happened once i cant afford to let that happen again. im scared that i might fall weak and feel like i have nothing left if ever you were to leave. im stubborn, im scared, im just not sure if im strong enough. I’m trying.
ive learned to never take anything for granted. i didnt appreciate what i had till ive lost it. i didnt take those chances when i had the opportunity to. i didnt do the things i wish ive done. but im learning from it all, ive finally accepted what was, what is, and what’s to come. how lucky i was to have something that made saying goodbye so hard <3
I thought I was over you, I could’ve sworn I’ve moved on. but lately, every little thing reminds me of you. I compare every guy to you, but they don’t come close. seeing you live your dream out there, yes I’m happy for you and I’m happy with where I am in life too. But I miss you, I miss everything we had… I still remember this exact time last year, I still remember it all. the late nights, the movie dates, basketball games, those jokes that only we understood, the adventures, everything. these “what ifs” drive me crazy, but what if?
thanks for the high recommendation sergeant, this opportunity would mean the world to me right now. no high-hopes, no guarantee… just fingers crossed! :)
if someone tries to change you, don’t do it. if they really do love you, they’d accept you for who you are. they’d look past every flaw and remind themselves just how much they want you to stay in their life. but constantly trying to change you? its not even worth it. changing because someone isn’t satisfied with the way you are isn’t even worth anything. changing without putting yourself first is like losing yourself. stay true, stay you.. and if thats not enough, they dont deserve someone like you. remember that!
martin: Morris, can you teach me how to be ghetto?
Morris: bitch… I ain’t even ghetto!
me: … Mhm, you actually are!
Morris: fuck you Cruz, you Bitch!
me: ouch, that actually hurt 😒